Reminding myself that I have to keep a grip! I used to have fat days and thin days, now I just have fat days and sexy days. It’ll have to do. I almost lost my grip today and looked else where for an answer. I bought a local paper (first waste of money and I mustn’t do it again!) Secondly I read the rubbish and thirdly I reacted to an advert and contacted a health and fitness club and almost thought of going! It would have cost me £5.80 a week and I would have used it as a crutch for my own lack of will power. I have to sort out will power myself. I have it and I know when I use it, things go right, for example, I’m paying back debts. Weight loss is the same. I have all the old ‘diet club’ advice, I followed it before and I lost three stone. Going to the class did not make me lose the weight, I did! I need to sort out the rest of my self control. I need to follow the programme I did before and just stick to it!
Well, I am doing just that and it’s left me feeling that stupid guilt that I feel about money, by huge weight gain and not doing things for myself. Only I have the answer.
It’s amazing what blogs can do to remind you that you have the answers yourself! Firstly, I read Ilona’s blog at ‘Life after money ‘. I’ve met Ilona, she stayed with us last summer and she says it, lives and reaps the rewards of her frugal life. She travels, raises money for an animal charity, rambles, walks miles in the peace of her own company and is an all round positive person. Her blog today, reminded me, that it isn’t easy and that self discipline has its own rewards and they are sometimes delayed and they are never instant. Saving a few pennies here, there and anywhere will eventually pay off my debts.
I then read the fantastic blog Mennonite Girls can cook and their Sunday message of ‘bread for the journey’. There was the message I needed today and it said –
Hebrews 12:11 NIV
” No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have trained by it.” No recipe today, but certainly the nutrition I needed today.
My harvest and my peace will come, it’s in the distance and there’s a slow journey. I just need to make sure it’s a low calorie portion controlled one, which is also low in cost and can be batch cooked to make sure when I get there, I’m not dragging myself there but springing energetically!